Improvement

In the past, if I did good for a while, onece I made a mistake or "backslid" for a meal or a day or a week, I never picked myself back up.

This past week the backslide started on Thursday. Went out to dinner with friends and good have made a healthy but yummy choice about food, but instead made the yummy and unhealthy choice about food. It was good, but... I could have done better and done fine. I know that now after having alot more successful eating out experiences.

Then, on Friday, after we got the new car, my mother-in-law called and asked us if we wanted to go to dinner. Yes. But the place she wanted to go... not the best for me. Nor did I make the best choices. I tried, but...

Saturday came. Dinner came, and no food out of the freezer for dinner. I suggested fast food and literally talked my husband into it. I wanted it. I wanted a cheeseburger, curly fries and a milkshake. I got it, and a 1900+ calorie day. Whoops.

But today? I did good. I exercised, and ate well. I am back on track, and this time, I know I will stay there.

I'm not saying I can never eat a cheeseburger. Once in a while, a break is ok. But also? I have to remember that just eating out is NOT an excuse for eating crappy. I have done SO much better about that, but I have to keep reminding myself.

We'll see how the scale reprimands me tomorrow.

Go me! It's my birthday!

Weeelll, ok, it's not, really. But it almost feels like it. I got on the scale today... I was down 3.2 pounds for a total of 11.4 in the past six weeks. I'm SO EXCITED.

A couple of things I'm noticing.

~My core and boobs (of course) and cheeks (the ones in my face) have lost inches and are getting thinner. Yeah! My legs and arms? The same inches. However, I am noticing more definition in them. I want the inches to go though!

~Today, at work, the girls were asking how much I had lost and saying they noticed and how good I looked. It felt REALLY nice. People were noticing, and I felt wonderful. That was nice. More than nice.

~I have more energy. I'm dragging out of bed in the morning for some reason, but I don't feel tired. all. the. time. like I used to.

~I have to stay away. Remember my thoughts that eating poorly is my drug? I am sober right now, that's how I feel. I have to stay sober in order to stay sober, you know? No binges.

~I can live without Dairy Queen, Dunkin Donuts, and Starbucks. Oh, and pizza. It seems like a miracle to me, but it is true. I KNOW. But I promise, it's true. I don't remember the last time I had any of them. Scary, I know.

~I can eat out and make healthy choices. This comes as one of the biggest surprises to me. I can go to a restaurant, and sometimes even a fast food place, and chooce healthy foods. People may make fun of me for having to choose what I eat before I get to the restaurant, but that helps. Then I know exactly how many calories and exchanges I'm eating. Also? On Friday we went out to eat and I made good choices, stayed in both my exchanges and calories, and it was gooood.

Look at me go.

Summer

I'm sure my plethora of faithful readers have been wondering where I am. I know my e-mail inbox has been overflowing with concerned queries.

Fear not. I've been having summer. In the proces, I have lost... a few pounds since I was last here. I have been eating really well, with the exception of the few days we were in Cape Cod, and one day this past weekend. Otherwise, the 'xchange and I are getting along swimmingly.

So yes, we spent our two year anniversary on Cape Cod. It was wonderful. I loved it and did not want to leave. We came home and two days later my adorable niece and nephew came for the weekend. I cried when they left.

Here are some pictures.

Us, at our anniversary dinner. 2 years!

There are shacks on the dunes at the tip of Cape Cod. People live in them.

the beach.

Us at the beach

the dunes

I would love to share pictures of my niece and nephew, but alas, blogger hates me and does not want me to share these pictures. So I will another day. I have no other vacations longer than a weekend so hopefully I will not neglect my blog like this again soon.